I wanted half a dozen at least
Time passed, marriage happened, and we agreed
Children were in the cards just not yet
A year before our plan
Baby boy was born
I’d like to say it was an exciting time,
But it wasn’t
It was terrifying
Everything went through my head
It’s not time, we’re not ready, what if I screw this up
Flash forward a decade
I don’t have half a dozen
I have two
One boy, one girl
Motherhood is everything and nothing I expected
I expected to laugh, to be tired
I didn’t expect to cry or worry so much, to truly feel exhausted
It’s been said, motherhood is the hardest job I’ll ever have but also the most rewarding
I’ve learned that I can feel two completely different things at once
I simultaneously feel-
Pride and Pain
Joy and Sadness
Trust and Worry
Relief and Stress
Energy and Exhaustion
Now-would I do it again?
ABSOLUTELY
-- Mikaela J., Adult